The World We Blog

This is intended to be where you come because you want to know more. More about the site, more about the author or perhaps more about why this site is so crap? Whatever your reason, you have come to the right place.

The site’s purpose is quite simple – an outlet for me to write down any feelings I may be having. I’m not clinically depressed or a psychopathic murderer who wishes to plan their next victim, but as with all people I do go through moods. Sometimes I can seem to be as normal as anyone else, but on the inside I could be falling apart with grief. I don’t like to show my feelings to other people and, instead, prefer to keep them bottled up inside where they eat away at me. I realised a while back that this wasn’t doing me any good and decided that writing an online journal would be a good way to express these feelings without having to confide in someone. In a way I suppose I am confiding in the internet community as a whole, for anyone who reads my website has been confided in.
I know I don’t always write deep and personal information on the site, but it sometimes happens, and when it does I am usually only putting them on here because if I don’t tell someone I will explode.
The site has been around since December 15th, 2002, at which time I was still studying for my GCSE’s and was obsessed with a girl called Cammy. From then onwards my blog has been here for me to confide in, and confide in it I have! We’ve been through a lot – me and my blog. It has seen my deepest, darkest moments when I have been so depressed I wanted to die and it has also seen my happiest moments when I wouldn’t care if I died right there because nothing could beat the feeling. There isn’t a feeling me and my blog haven’t shared. In a way, this blog is my best friend, and in the same way that makes you, the reader, my best friend. You are privy to feelings I usually would not tell anyone. I don’t mind you reading my blog, but I do ask you respect this fact.

What about me though? Who the hell am I? Well, my name is David and I am an 20-year-old student from Reading, UK. I am 5ft 6″, weighing in at roughly 8st and with a skinny, yet toned, build. Blue fills my eyes and my hair is a combination of blonde and brown (known as dirty blonde, although not due to a lack of washing). I am also forced to wear glasses due to my vision being worse than that of a bat.
Family wise… Now that is where things start to get interesting with my life. I currently live at home with my Mum, Dad and younger Sister. Then we get onto my brothers… Before the summer of 2003 I had two older brothers, the oldest being Andy and the younger of them being Stephen. However, in the summer of 2003 Stephen decided, for reasons I cannot go into, to end his life – thus leaving me with a single brother now. Obviously this event has affected my life, causing me to adopt the philosophy of living every day to the full because it could be my last and living for myself, no-one else. It also affects my mood sometimes and I can be known to have a rapid mood swing for no apparent reason. I try my best not to let it affect me, but it always manages to affect me in some way.
I am currently studying a National Certificate course for IT Practitioners at Reading College, but after completing my GCSE’s I actually enrolled into the sixth form at my school. I must say, I was happy there for the first few months, but due to other circumstances such as the end of my first serious relationship and the loss of my brother, I felt I had to drop out because I could not concentrate in class. After a failed attempt at getting a job, and then a failed attempt at getting a Modern Apprenticeship, I have finally ended up at college and I am finally starting to feel settled.
As with all teenagers these days I need a source of income, and the way I bring this in is rather interesting. Instead of working in a monotonous shelf-stacking job at Waitrose, I work at a local leisure centre running children’s parties. Now before you even think about making a comment, I’ve had them all before, so don’t! You would be surprised how fun it actually is. Every party is different, meaning there is no repetitiveness to the job and also my co-workers are all absolutely fantastic. You couldn’t dream of working with a nicer bunch of people. My main role there entails running birthday parties for 5-11 year-olds, but I also work playscheme during the holiday periods and help with local events – supervising the bouncy castle at events such as carnivals or open days.
There’s not much else to know about me other than my hobbies and interests. In this respect I am like most other teenagers. I like socialising with friends, drinking, partying, listening to music, playing computer games and using the internet to chat and browse web pages. I also have an active interest in web design, with the site you are viewing currently having been designed by myself.